Sunday, January 18, 2009

Today is the day I begin to change. I can't remember the last time I was satisfied in my life. I am tired of sitting by and letting life slip past me. I don't want to live in idleness anymore. Everyone dies, but not everyone lives, and I don't want to go through this life without ever having lived. I want to experience life. I want to change the world. I want to make an impact for the better. What I didn't realize was that everyday I refused to move forward, I was actually slipping closer and closer to the edge. There was a time when my life was full of security, hope, and passion. I want that back. I want to be passionately in love with my Lord, living for him. I don't know how to get there, but I trust my Lord to carry me, and today I am promising to do my part, refusing to sit by and wait. I will make goals every month for the next 3 months to improve myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. When I fail, I will admit my failure and try again, but never will I stop trying. Lord, be with me today as I seek a place to start. I am sorry for turning away. Thank you for always being there when I turn around. Thank you for never leaving, even when I act like I don't want or need you around.