10.18.2008

Laughter.

To laugh with the one you love may be the greatest thing we can experience. It's like a glimpse of heaven, something that lets you know that everything is going to be OK. That little moment when you're laughing so hard that you can't even open your eyes, that's the moment when you truly see each other. That's the moment when you are most connected. I hold onto those moments. I know they are from God, and I am truly thankful. I love the Lord! I am so proud to be his.

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love."
-Einstein

10.16.2008

Unanswered Questions

Why? That's what I've been asking myself a lot lately. Why am I here? Why am I going to Italy? Why am I an EMP major? Is that really what I want to do with the rest of my life? Why can't I major in something I'm passionate about? Why could something that's so perfect be just out of reach? Why did I say yes to doing props? WHY DID I SAY YES TO DOING PROPS? Why can't I go home for fall break? Why are the other people in my life so wonderful? What did I do to deserve that? How do I know that college is right for me? Why don't I have the guts to drop out? Why can't I make a decision on my own? Why am I freaking out about all of these unanswered questions?

None of these things I can answer. I can only put my hope and trust in the Lord...which is the one thing that is missing from my life...time with the Lord. I've taken on so many things that I don't even have time for him anymore. Two weeks...that's what I keep telling myself. Two weeks and I will have my sanity back. Until then I just do my best. I'm losing precious sleep that I really need for functioning purposes, but I'll manage somehow for a week or two. I hope you all are having a week somewhat less stressful than mine. Thank you for the encouragement you are in my life. I truly appreciate it.